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thats July over with then .... not sure i'll be going for full membership next year .... so i have to get the next feature up and running soon
my goodness me i read a poem this evening with a single sentance that summed up everything for me and i'm going to share it with you all
"We are undiscoverable because nobody is searching for us"
please check out this ladys work its amazing it really is ... [link]
another week and its going to be August where does the time go ... i'm glad i went to the old cemetary yesterday although it makes me sad when i see what people have done and how unkept it is
i'm still searching but it keeps eluding me ... someone said the nicest thing to me yesterday which was wonderful and i wish her all the very best in whats going on in her life ... it felt really good to talk to someone well not talk but you know what i mean
i really do think its my destiny to be where i am now ... i don't think anything can surprise me anymore (is that a poor way of looking at the world? ive been a long time alone and i'd love someone to be able to share life with)
oooooo i'm rambling .... have a good last week in July and take care all of you
..... and the sun continues to elude me ... i feel somehow strange that i havent see the sunrise in such a longtime as if a part of me in missing ..... [link][link][link][link][link][link][link][link]
..... life is really kind of strange but music and the sunrise helps me through it ... and my friends do more than they think or i can ever tell them ....[link]
i need to get back to what (i think) i do best which is sunrises, not sure my words should be here as they give too much of me away (thank you for giving me the confidence to put some of them down - you know who you are), so as a final yes about my words i miss having that special someone in the world with me and ten years without any contact with someone special has hurt lots (i was married for 24 years to the only woman i ever loved who i'd known since i was 15 ... then i had my heart ripped out and thrown on the ground and its not been easy especially when i find out i'm not what people want in their lives)... last words on words so now you know
with a sad heart its time to start deleting some of my images ... far too many of them and not as good as i wanted them to be ... i'll try not to delete any images that have been added as faves ...
everything in life is far too elusive ... at times i don't want to be part of it anymore, no matter what i try to do everything & everyone eludes me ... i find the reason impossible to identify anymore ...
i love art .... who'll explore it with me
"Every good painter paints what he is, the painting has a life of its own"
"Im not an abstractionist. Im not interested in the relationship of color or form or anything else. Im interested only in expressing basic human emotions: tragedy, ecstasy, doom, and so on"
"The true work of art is but a shadow of the divine perfection"
"I am an artist
I am here to live out loud"
There are painters who transform the sun into a yellow spot, but there are others who, thanks to their art and intelligence, transform a yellow spot into the sun, art washes from the soul the dust of everyday life, art is a lie that helps us to realize the truth
"There's no retirement for an artist, it's your way of living so there's no end to it"
"To become truly immortal, a work of art must escape all human limits: logic and common sense will only interfere. But once these barriers are broken, it will enter the realms of childhood visions and dreams"
Giorgio de Chirico
"I dream a lot. I do more painting when I'm not painting. It's in the subconscious"
"The artist need not know very much; best of all let him work instinctively and paint as naturally as he breathes or walks"
the little things ...
we never know the beauty,
of the little things,
how little they seem to be,
insignificant at the time maybe,
their importance is often lost,
their value never seen.
if we look we see,
understand the details,
envisage in our hearts & minds,
the beauty of the little things,
that causes a surge in our heart,
to stray from the path.
we see them everyday but we don't,
maybe its because they are always there,
we hold them in our hands,
we catch them with our eyes,
but when you look close enough,
they causes us to loose our focus,
the little things,
the beauty of it all,
a single ray of sunshine on a wire,
a reflection in a puddle,
the details of a smile,
the joy it brings, the removal of the darkness, the opening up of souls, the words from deep within, how they change our lives and those of the ones we hold dear around us, so let us grasp, hold, encapture the beauty of the little things, and never let them go .......
every single one of you are totally wonderful people ... you fill my world with fantastic images every single day and leaving me in awe ... you are all in my hearts more than you'll ever imagine possible
my next feature will be a hard one to put together but i'll give you a small insight ... its the poem above ... at this moment in time i'm playing 5ive who totally burn my brains out and make my heart beat faster .... in my ears their version of pink floyd astronomy domine and its called "the hemophiliac dream" which isnt on youtube .... hopefully this will show you all where i am right now in my head
what a strange day ... ive removed myself from all the groups i was in ... i got a message from one of the groups (you know new pictures added) and i was stunned totally stunned by the finished work these wonderful artists upload every single day and they are totally stunning jaw dropping infact ... and i felt so strange that i was there i felt as if i was intruding (does that make sense) and that my work would never be accepted (no matter what we say we all like our work to be accepted) .... so i'm group free again ....
and now i feel as if ive lost something very important .... thats not the groups .... life isnt fair or structured in a way i wish it was .... happiness is more important than anything i could ever think of
did it send a shiver through your body, it did through mine, did it make your days brighter, it did mine, did you know you made me smile, when i look inside i know, in just the way you are with me, you'll always be inside me ......
its Friday night and i just want you to be happy
i'm going to see if i can catch a sunset ... because the awful silence is building up inside and i'm afraid of it feeding on the loneliness and creating a bigger void, that the dark shadows haunt, as they torment and torture me .....
very early in the morning and suddenly my word is full of words ...
i touched your heart with my finger tips, you know i'll stay right were i am, i won't let time decay for me or for you, and you touched my heart and made me happy
just another day but each day should be held tight and if you have people in your life that you care about you should let them know each and every day ....
why do i love you ... because you make me happy, because you make me feel safe and secure, because i love your wonderful smile, because of the feelings when you say my name
i love you when i look into your eyes and you tell me i'm so special, when you dont laugh at me when others would but you make me smile so much when i do those silly things, because you let me be me and want nothing else but my happiness, when i never have to worry about what you may think of me, because you love who i am even though i have my faults
i love waking up next to you or feeling you close to me, watching you when your sleeping, to hear you breathe, resting my hand on your chest and feeling your heart beat, just holding your hand & knowing that you are mine, & not just having to dream about you
i love you for the way you hold me, the way you tell me whats on your mind, knowing that tomorrow i will love you more, the way you lightly kiss me like a hot summers breeze, the way i feel when you touch me, you are my emotions, your voice with all its tones and emotions
i love the way you enjoy every second with me, that you take me as i am, that my world is full of my friends, some slightly strange and i know you dont like them all but you take them because they are important to me, i love listening to your stories and watching your eyes sparkle when you talk of different things, i love you because your different and you dont just let anyone in ...
i love you because you are you!
.... happy 4th July to all my friends especially those in the USA ... this morning i watched an amazing sunrise and as is the norm i took far too many pictures, at this moment in time i'm slowly going through them ... i do hope you enjoy what i captured ... take care everyone
i waited until 4am and then decided to go out "in my shorts" no idea why but as they hang on the line and my legs sting i'm uploading ....
.... and here it is July well thats half another year gone and now its time to think of a new feature (i have something in mind) ... its also time to re-group and re-vist things (if you know what i mean) ... if during June i embaressed anyone then i'm sorry ... i hope the works i featured were shown in such a way as to say "look at me see how wonderful i am" ... you are all great artists and the world would be a colder place without you all - so thank you all
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